5 Weeks in and What to show for it?
Sometimes it is so scary to put yourself out there.
I have to admit that over the past 5 weeks since the soft launch of SHE. has equality on International Women's Day, I really started to doubt myself. I started questioning what I was thinking.
Do I even have time for this? Wouldn't it be easier to crawl back into bed and lay around all day? Who do I think I am anyway? Who cares about Equality and Can we even make a difference anyway? Who is ever going to want to buy my clothes? and Do I seriously have what it takes to pull this off?
I have been putting off promoting my company, my website, and my amazing products for fear that I will not be good enough, that they will not be good enough and the fear of failure has been nearly crippling.
Recently I have been learning about Imposter Syndrome. It is a new concept to me in realization, but an old concept as in, its been lurking around the corner my whole life I just didn't know what it was or how to place it. Imposter Syndrome is the belief that you are not who you say you are. That you are a fake. You doubt your accomplishments and abilities. Along with that, comes the fear of being exposed in having untrue intentions.
We have all said "Fake it till you make it" a time or two I'm sure, but recognizing this just plays more into my unwarranted limiting beliefs, I am now choosing to say "Act the way you want to feel." (Thank you Gretchen Rubin of The Happiness Project).
This statement makes me feel more in control. That my intentions are pure and I am able to create the reality I seek, rather than leaving it to chance and hoping for the best.
I have the immense pleasure of volunteering with a local girls group called Be Amazing lead by Shelly Skinner. Being around these girls on a weekly basis is humbling. What you see on their faces is real. They are scared, they are hopeful, they are just trying with all their might to fit in and not get noticed all at the same time. It really gives you an idea of how vulnerable they are. Its almost like you forget that you were like this too.
My favourite part of this program is going in each week and speaking to someone who looks alone or like they don't have it quite figured out. Do you remember walking into a room where you didn't know anyone?? SO scary!!! Its the best to give them a big smile and some words of encouragement. You can physically see how this changes their presence. to feel like someone sees you.
It is so important that we guard out mental health, like a mother bear to its cub. Our mind has the power to completely destroy us. I know that I am not an imposter and that I have nothing to worry about, but I literally have to tell myself that every day, until I believe it.
Be conscious. Be aware of that little voice inside your head telling you, you can't do it. Tell it to sit this one out, you've got this and walk into that room like you own the place.